Not always

Not always

I don’t always smile. I don’t always laugh. I sometimes cry myself to sleep. I sometimes think about running away and ending it all.

But I’m still here. Fighting. I hope you will too.

-E

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In Honour of #BellLet’sTalk Day

In Honour of #BellLet’sTalk Day

In honour of #BellLet’sTalk Day today, I give you the words of a good friend of mine. She said it best:

I’m finding it hard to write about my mental health as well as mental health in general today. Normally I make a post about my mental health struggles, and downfalls, as well as accomplishments, and successes but today it’s a little difficult. This past year was hard. There were days when my anxiety wouldn’t present […]

via To the people in my circle — Just Kaylee

Rose-Minded Collab

Rose-Minded Collab

Hello, my lovelies!

I have some great news. I teamed up with the lovely Kayla Uimari from Rose-Minded (https://www.rose-minded.com) to help spread awareness about mental health.

So often I find that people do not understand how much someone’s illness may affect their daily life, personal thoughts and productivity. People don’t realize that it is not a choice to be sick.

As most of you know, I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), as well as some other illnesses. I have attempted suicide, and I have spent weeks in some hospitals. I am also still here, fighting for my sanity.

With this in mind and a little drop of hope in my heart, I am determined to be a voice for those who struggle. I will say what needs to be said. I will defend who needs to be defended. I will not leave anyone behind.

So, here I am. A representative for all who suffer. A voice for the voiceless.

As I said above, I have teamed up with Kayla, the creator of Rose-Minded. It’s a blog about mental health awareness. Rose-Minded offers information about mental health, self-care, resources and journal guides (example pictures posted below) to lend a helping hand to for those suffering.

To purchase a journal guide, head over to the Rose-Minded website (link written above). My personal discount code is elena15 and can be used to get 15% off your purchase. Be sure to check out everything Rose-Minded offers and if you feel inspired, become an affiliate like I did.

I hope these journal guides and Rose-Minded give you the support that you need to continue on the journey of recovery.

Also, be sure to check out my book Finding Elena (https://www.amazon.com/dp/1546873481/ref=cm_sw_su_dp). It is a window into my pain and my on-going journey.

And as always, thank you all for being on this journey with me and reading my words. I am so thankful for all of you.

Xoxo

-E

 

New Year, New Me?

New Year, New Me?

Well, here we are. 2018. A new year has finally arrived. A new beginning for all those who struggled, and a continuation of goodness for those who were successful in 2017.

I am really struggling with this. It is because around this time last year was when everything went downhill for me and I ended up in the hospital after an overdose. It was then that I could not function and needed the support of my doctors, nurses, and professors, as well as my family and friends, to help me get through it. This led to a year of angst and suffering for myself as well as my family.

Beginning this new year gives me quite a bit of anxiety because I do not want it to be like last year. I do not want to fall like I did last year. I want to succeed and move forward and improve my life as well as myself.

Many people set goals at the beginning of every year. I did too, only to falter and never hold myself accountable for those goals throughout the years. But this year, I want to change it up, do something different. I want to make sure I am reaching my goals this year.

So, how will I do that? Hmm, I’m not sure. To be completely honest I haven’t even set my goals for this year yet. Maybe, instead of making a long list of goals that I will probably never reach, I should just pick one thing. ONE THING that I will commit to doing 100%.

What should that one thing be?

BE HAPPY.

I like this goal. I want to reach this goal of being genuinely happy with myself. I will give my all to make this happen as this is extremely important to me. I feel that focusing my attention on just one thing will help me work harder towards it and hopefully even achieve it.

In the comments below, tell me, what are your New Year goals?

-E

My Portfolio

My Portfolio

Hello.

Here is a link to my portfolio of creative and professional work: (https://medium.com/elenas-creative-content)

Hope you enjoy.

-E

Author page

Author page

Good morning everyone!

Just an update. My author page is now up and running! The link is posted on my Social Media page on my blog. I am also attaching it to this post below.

www.amazon.com/author/elenadeluigi

Please go and check it out! Also, if you could give my book ‘Finding Elena’ a review that would be wonderful! Thank you!

Xoxo

-E

Being a busy bee

Being a busy bee

Good afternoon my loves!

I have to say, this week has been SUPER busy for me. I was in the newsroom regularly, as well as I was out in the city filming and doing what journalists do best. I did not stop for four days straight. It was intense but yet, exhilarating because I was doing what I loved most.

I’m finding it much easier to accept the fact that my chosen profession is always up and running. News never stops, and neither do journalists. As a journalist myself, I can attest to that. I never cease to work.

Luckily, I have this weekend to rest and recuperate, before heading back into the fire Monday morning. So, how do I plan to spend my weekend? Well, I will definitely be reading a good book while drinking many cups of hot coffee and tea. Also, my family is coming to visit me tomorrow which will give me some much-needed family time.

I look forward to having tranquil few days. How are you guys spending your weekend? Let me know in the comments below.

-E